“As a deer longs for streams of water, so I long for You, God. I thirst for God, the living God. When can I come and appear before God? My tears have been my food day and night, while all day long people say to me, ‘Where is your God?’ I remember this as I pour out my heart: how I walked with many leading the festive procession to the house of God, with joyful and thankful shouts. Why am I so depressed? Why this turmoil within me? Put your hope in God, for I will still praise Him, my Savior and my God.” Psalm 42:1-5 When I was still in the military, a friend and believer that I respected was fervent for God. One day I found him weeping, deep in depression because of home situations and other things going on around him. I tried to comfort him, and we prayed together, but he remained depressed. Later however, I witnessed him witnessing to another, praising God, even in his depression. I remember that day, that time in my life when I saw the hand of God working on one, who even though going through a depression, was witnessing for the Lord. I was in awe. For many of us, we will witness on the good days, but when something hits us and causes us to become depressed, we tend to shrink back and not want to be in the presence of anyone else. I must admit, and I have had numerous times when I longed to be with the Lord, even to the point of thirsting for His presence, even if it meant leaving this earth to be with Him. I wonder if others who may have seen this wondered where God was?
The above is an excerpt from a devotional I receive daily. Pastor Andy and I are kindred spirits on several levels. This devotional made me think about when I trust God and, to be honest, when I don’t! It has nothing to do with the Lord … but only to do with me! I do not question if God can do something … He can do ALL things! It comes down to if I will let him use me when the opportunities arise! Unfortunately, I have missed many while wallowing in my own muck! I pray that I/we won’t miss another!
Blessings as we head into this July 4th weekend. Remember why we have the freedoms we do … and Who gives us the ultimate freedom!