Sorry for the lateness of the post. I didn’t get done what I had hoped and then I got incredibly busy with my children’s activities. Speaking of children…
Matthew 18:2-4 (ESV)
2 And calling to him a child, he put him in the midst of them 3 and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4 Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.
Lately I have been wrestling with some different issues. Mainly issues of doctrine. I have been studying scripture, spending time in prayer and looking up different articles on the topics I am struggling with. I still haven’t gained an understanding of those issues. It has been driving me crazy! I am the type of person that will let it consume me until I figure it out. I will read the same scripture over and over and over. I guess I think that God will finally grant me that understanding if I read it repeatedly. I get this delusion that I can force God in to “tipping HIS hand” and revealing to me what I want to know. Seriously?! Like I am going to outsmart God?!?! Come on!
On Thursday, I had lunch with my pastor. I had some questions about some of the issues I was having. I just wanted to get some more guidance and hopefully get some more resources to study. During our conversation, I got on the topic of the core of my beliefs. At my core, I have a very simplistic view on Christianity and my faith. I used creation as an example. There is a lot of debate about creation. How did God do it? Is a day during creation the same 24-hour day we recognize now? Was the big bang an occurrence of God saying, “Let there be light!”? I say what does it matter? People can debate that all they want but there is one thing that is not debatable. God created everything. PERIOD! I wasn’t there what He did it. You weren’t there when He did it. When we all go home to be with HIM we can as HIM. Bear with me here. I know you are wondering where children come in to this.
My pastor reminded me that we are to have faith like a child. I would even say that God was reminding me that I needed to get back to my core belief. At my core, I have such a blind faith in God. I just knew in my heart it was true. God will grant me the understanding and the wisdom that I am seeking when it best suits HIS plan. When it will be best for HIS kingdom. There are times that we just want to know. We feel like we are ready but the fact is that God is not done with us just yet. HE has more he wants to do with us before revealing certain things. We must remember the sovereignty of God. HE will do things according to the works HE had planned. If we just have faith like a child and humble ourselves like the child that Jesus is speaking of in the verse above, then HE will grant us the knowledge, wisdom and understanding. HE will work on our hearts and grow us according to HIS plan. We will mature in our relationship each day.
I know am speaking to myself but I hope that this helps even one person. I know it has helped me just to talk it out. It helped me to reach out to my pastor. It is beneficial for us to use our brothers and sisters in Christ. That is a topic for another time. Regardless, God will work through them and through you. In the end go back to the basics. Just have faith like a child that HE is working in you. That HE is working on you. That HE is using you for HIS purpose. HIS love for you is not debatable! It just is! It is infinite! It is unconditional! We are HIS children!