I have both a relatively strong work ethic and moral conscience and I feel it can lead me to trying to do things to save myself. To feel the more I do for God, the more God will love me which secures my salvation. I know this is faulty theology, but admittedly I do wrongly ascribe to this at times if I am honest.
The following passage, Isaiah 30: 15, is in the context of a rebuke, but I found peace in this when I came across it today:
“This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: In repentance and rest is your salvation in quietness and trust is your strength”
Thank you Lord! My reaction to this was peace, rest and reassurance. But then I turned to frustration because of my lack of being able to fully escape my “works” mentality.
Then the Lord again blessed me with words which unbridled his endless peace, grace, and love to me with these words in versus 19-22:
“ People of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. How gracious he will be when you cry for help! As soon as he hears, he will answer you. Although the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, your teachers will be hidden no more; with your own eyes you will see them. Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Then you will desecrate your idols overlaid with silver and your images covered with gold; you will throw them away like a menstrual cloth and say to them, “Away with you!”
God’s word is alive and active and personal. In reading this passage, the realities of my sinfulness were exposed in the “bread of adversity”. Then I found peace in his “rest”. But this resulted in guilt for my original sinfulness which birthed frustration with myself. Then the Lord gave me peace again in versus 19-22. All this in an instant.
I just wanted to thank and praise God for his personal nature. For knowing me and the human experience so well and continually bringing us back to him. His patience and love is so amazing and endless. His word so real and relevant.